As a part of my spiritual self-examination it was easy to come up with a list of all the things that were making me unhappy. I did a good job of evaluating my life. I knew all the things that displeased me. Why did I just feel worse? I prayed for these things to improve, but the longer I waited the more worked up I got. Surely all of this could be worked out. This whole situation was becoming more and more distressing. Why was it taking so long to clear the slate? I've been praying for over a week now. Then I realized I was closing in a "spiritual meltdown."
A "spiritual meltdown" is a period in your life when you realize that your personal life is spiraling out of control and you know that your relationship with God is incomplete. So far all of this self-examination was one sided. I was forgetting that if you really want God to be in control you first have to give him permission. Until that time, he'll be quite content to let your free will guide you. Next, you must be willing to accept God's settlement. Sometime problems are resolved in a totally different manner than what you expected. Finally, you have to search out your role in this life process and except it for what it is. Forget the complaining and the whining. You will ultimately realize the solution and can rejoice in the knowledge that his is his plan and it is good. Life's solutions take time that is why Lent lasts for 40 days.
Be calm. Be Patient. Wait.
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